It always feels wonderful to write, I personally feel there are two kind of people in the world who can talk/ who can write, some are equally good in both and some in neither of it. For me, writing was never so important when I had someone to express my feelings, not necessarily joy or anger but the general happenings of the ...but now when I am left with no one to share what I feel ...this might work wonders to me…
I donno whats happening..just yesterday mom kept saying that I have changed(Mom till today has never spoken a word against me..) she started off saying how impatient I have become, no longer that happy-go-lucky gal I used be, blah.blah…..blah..Dad too more or less repeated the same. Hey what do you expect me to do guys I myself is very confused,..in any other situation this is definitely not the way I would react, now almost smallest of things freaks me out..i scream like anything.unable to handle the stress
I feel everything is wrong, everybody is against me. Seriously had it in mind that I need some help but I know that wil not work out for me. I am not someone who wil listen to some fella saying I am insane,,Goddamit! I am okay just that my problems arent;)………there are times when I sit and wonder does everybody go thru this phase…must be(atleast that would be consolation to this worried soul:-(
I have a problem everywhere let me tell you(anycase whom am I telling this?) at home I feel Im overly used up..cant do all this yaar…Leny although isnt a difficult child is definitely attention seeker, he need me to be around for nothing and everything..baby please understand..i cant be.i also should be cooking..should be dressing up…should be talking over the phone..should be reading the newspaper( only luxury I cant possibly miss)..should be finding the right clothes out of my wardrobe etc…etc

@ at work..there I feel im underly used((right Englis` who is bothered?!)), I feel my potential is not used..C'mon me not saying I wanna become a developer (geek im not cut for that…sitting and staring into the computer as if something is gonna pop out of nowhere) or something..guys gimme some decent stuff where I can prove myself, where I can use my goddamn brains, these days I don’t even feel like dressing up for work..i pull out something which is obviously easy to press and bingo Im ready(did I mention..i stopped my famous Kajal..so that saves me the time and energy) dab on a dollop of sunscreen and a touch of lipstick and there goes ME..how ruthlessly I drive my bike..GOD Knows..
God U have been kind enough to me in so many ways..Must be mad that I don’t pray..i just cant u know it..but yes!!! I believe in you…I know without you I could not have pulled on for so long…and I damn sure you will keep me going for a long while..
Hats Off to ya!!!!