Sigh....

This is what i am doing all thru..sigh..sigh..
feeling too stressed for whatever reasons, donno if there is anything wrong with me physically too. Trying to keep my cool but not very successful with that..

But donno i am smiling a lot too..probably my way of giving back to the world...If God appears now maybe i will not wish for anything..i might put up my hands and say what next for me? he sure would be proud..:)

H.I.B.E.R.N.A.T.I.O.N.

this is exactly what i am doing right now..away from the world..away from friends..away from the comfort..i feel i have slippped into something deep so away from everything.

It isnt for any reason..its just a state of mind of course i could have tried and stopped it..but have let it be.somethings happen for better, its my time to ponder on the happenings..

I dont even miss anything anymore..that makes me feel so strong like i can live on..go on..

Donno how long this phase will last...well i let it be..

Prayer

After a long time back here..nothing much on mind. Sunny day..sang my way thru the horrid traffic jam and reached office. Everything pretty much the same....but was walking to get my regular cuppa tea that is when i notice a guy cleaning the high rise with harness on. That is the moment a silent prayer escaped my lips..something like God! he needs you more than me at the moment, please be with him.

Somehow today I am made to think of my relationship with God, Maybe for some reason i trust in him so much that the need for prayer does not arise, yes time and again i do close my eyes to thank him for the experiences and joys. I do get upset that he repeatedly throws so many challenges but he knows it better..but not even for a moment I doubt that he is not with me. Thank you God! you know me..and hence i dont have to explain myself, that is such a solace..

One of the beautiful day...

Since the moment i looked out of my window had a feeling that it is one of those lovely days..started raining in the morning but not so lightly you miss the feeling nor too heavy..it terrifies..just the way i like it.. sipped the chai with a slow sense of gratitude, of having to have a day like this.. wish i find something everyday to go on... donno why i feel like reading' Bridges of Madison County' again..by the window with a cuppa hot coffee, ~>>>>>>>>>>>>

jus' read it..

"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back"

how true..aint it..lets see if this will bring in a change in me:)

At times I wish I am heard
I am noticed...
Yet other times
I wish the world forgets me
And goes on
Like I don’t exist
Coz I will not live by its terms
Its ways.....
The" rebel" in me is waking UP!

why is that somebody is made victim
of someone else' ego...
of someone else' insecurities..and complexes
when there is so much to deal with oneself
.......