This one’s for you.....................
Have been thinking from a very long time when was it I lived my life..yes! it was then(do you remember?) I have vowed that I will not take names as it will ruffle a lot of relationships and turn nasty..maybe everything we built in years would just go away with mere words..or maybe not also as always I might prove wrong, but its ok its better this way.
Today I am so mature that I don't feel a thing when I look back, well actually I do feel happy that it was nothing but a mystery why we had to part..but maybe it was destined to happen..
Never found anyone your types..i could so much relate to you, God! We were worst than girlfriends,,we could possibly talk endlessly isn’t it..i hardly talk today not that I cant, I don't have anything to talk about. I feel so tongue-tied in all situations, somehow we lost out on being good friends isn’t it?? We could have made each other's proud if we had just remained friends but no its no use we discuss this….
I think you have done well in life I always feared for you, thought you will never handle responsibilities etc..etc, proved me wrong!!! Deep within I hated you for having everything and not having to strive for anything, you never knew what it was to earn a living or how is it live in this big bad world. Being from a affluent family and born with a golden spoon in your mouth it was so much easy..you really didn't have to make an effort, I still remember the first time I was introduced to you near to the college I hated you at the glance you were one of those rich types(?!) but the second time it was ok and now I shall stop I don't really want to write about each and every meeting of ours it might take me hours.
We didn't have a reason to become close and neither did we have one to call it quits, we were in no ways committed..a bit more than friends and way less than a actual relationship, but today I realize we were what they call the “best of buddies” material only thing which went against us was our gender8-) when I generally searched for you on Orkut(after ages!)..i was taken aback didn't expect you to be so much there, although the pic was not so clear..but I couldn't be wrong..then began the sneak and peak which I know is wrong. I also wrote to you but never got ur reply anyways I know it would no ways change anything.
There were moments I wanted to share with you ...like the day I got my degree results(man..i managed a first class, good na?), then did my medical transcription course…went to work for a ad agency..moved to this city..kinda grew up…got married..became a Mom..and all the while missed ya..missed that affectionate friend who never had once raised voice or spoke harsh there were moments I thought I will not survive this big bad world and its nuances but actually I did, very self sufficient today..earning a very decent sal…good set of colleagues..excellent company..probably more than I ever dreamt off……. Had my share of relationships..some of them were a immediate passé some stood the test of times….trust me I am no longer that Sushma(I somehow don't remember you ever calling my name..u hardly ever…///)hmmm…good u never did or else I would have another reason to remember YOU…
God bless dear one..be happy…u are one of the nicest human beings I ever met..ByeOOOOOOO..
Have been thinking from a very long time when was it I lived my life..yes! it was then(do you remember?) I have vowed that I will not take names as it will ruffle a lot of relationships and turn nasty..maybe everything we built in years would just go away with mere words..or maybe not also as always I might prove wrong, but its ok its better this way.
Today I am so mature that I don't feel a thing when I look back, well actually I do feel happy that it was nothing but a mystery why we had to part..but maybe it was destined to happen..
Never found anyone your types..i could so much relate to you, God! We were worst than girlfriends,,we could possibly talk endlessly isn’t it..i hardly talk today not that I cant, I don't have anything to talk about. I feel so tongue-tied in all situations, somehow we lost out on being good friends isn’t it?? We could have made each other's proud if we had just remained friends but no its no use we discuss this….
I think you have done well in life I always feared for you, thought you will never handle responsibilities etc..etc, proved me wrong!!! Deep within I hated you for having everything and not having to strive for anything, you never knew what it was to earn a living or how is it live in this big bad world. Being from a affluent family and born with a golden spoon in your mouth it was so much easy..you really didn't have to make an effort, I still remember the first time I was introduced to you near to the college I hated you at the glance you were one of those rich types(?!) but the second time it was ok and now I shall stop I don't really want to write about each and every meeting of ours it might take me hours.
We didn't have a reason to become close and neither did we have one to call it quits, we were in no ways committed..a bit more than friends and way less than a actual relationship, but today I realize we were what they call the “best of buddies” material only thing which went against us was our gender8-) when I generally searched for you on Orkut(after ages!)..i was taken aback didn't expect you to be so much there, although the pic was not so clear..but I couldn't be wrong..then began the sneak and peak which I know is wrong. I also wrote to you but never got ur reply anyways I know it would no ways change anything.
There were moments I wanted to share with you ...like the day I got my degree results(man..i managed a first class, good na?), then did my medical transcription course…went to work for a ad agency..moved to this city..kinda grew up…got married..became a Mom..and all the while missed ya..missed that affectionate friend who never had once raised voice or spoke harsh there were moments I thought I will not survive this big bad world and its nuances but actually I did, very self sufficient today..earning a very decent sal…good set of colleagues..excellent company..probably more than I ever dreamt off……. Had my share of relationships..some of them were a immediate passé some stood the test of times….trust me I am no longer that Sushma(I somehow don't remember you ever calling my name..u hardly ever…///)hmmm…good u never did or else I would have another reason to remember YOU…
God bless dear one..be happy…u are one of the nicest human beings I ever met..ByeOOOOOOO..
No comments:
Post a Comment