At times I wish I am heard
I am noticed...
Yet other times
I wish the world forgets me
And goes on
Like I don’t exist
Coz I will not live by its terms
Its ways.....
The" rebel" in me is waking UP!

why is that somebody is made victim
of someone else' ego...
of someone else' insecurities..and complexes
when there is so much to deal with oneself
.......

30-ish Theory:)

I remember in college I would brag with friends..i can’t wait to be in my 30’s and then they would look at me like I have gone nuts!!!! I believed my 30’s will rock and it sure is! I know many will agree with me about this. Age brings along with it a sense of maturity and stability.

There are moments I am glad the way life has turned out, proud of every decision I have made, some turned out beautiful and others real bad, but it has brought a sense of accountability in me. I was more a free spirit and never liked to be bogged down with anything. I think my teenage was a havoc both to me and others , was always in a constant battle with my emotions, turbulent I should say. A bit more than a child and less a adult, trying to figure out ways of life…oof what a mess:).
And then there I was out in the world on my own, college done as there were no plans to continue further. My experiment with careers began, I am not sure if I made a success of it nevertheless met a wide variety of people. A few people who made a huge difference, rest of the lot don’t matter at all.
Me and a good friend were talking a couple of months ago that we could write a story of our life but I wanna wait.... life hasn’t come to an end….and (lol) I am only in my 30’s and it seems like it has just begun…….

Years ago it was impossible for me to judge people and when things turned sour I would know..but now I feel like a expert, I feel like I have this special power to read minds, read faces too..one look, exchange of a few words and boom….i just know what they are made of. ..not that I have not done mistakes after all to err is human na…
30’s has brought with it a wonderful sense of self-realization. A great feeling of freedom..a feeling of “ I can do what I want”. I can now differentiate a genuine compliment v/s fake, can get away from that salesgirl trying to promote a new beauty product, ask somebody to move out of my way in a crowd..and the list continues and so does the joy!!

Can’t help smiling when I hear Jay-Z sing 30’s the new 20........how true..how true( shout)..

A few things I wanna do before I hit 40 –

 Lose a few kilo’s ( n save me from old age pains:)
 Go on a trekking and it sure has to be the Himalayas or its ranges
 Pick up a car and start driving…
 Buy a good SLR and get into serious photography
 N the list continues………….

There is so much to do..so much to live and love..isn’t it?
I wanna keep the faith alive that I can do better with time:D

After all……….“Age is just a number".........................