Three Cheers to "US"

Celebrating 5 years of M A R R I A G E

Yes its been 5 years officially that me and Raj have been married..sounds so long long ago though:)
Only a couple of friends have remembered and have called and the rest of them im sure want to forget that I am married..lol

It’s a strange feeling coz I am so neutral, happy that 5 years have passed by, gosh man that was a rough sail and sincerely hope life is less turbulent and really hope we have a smooth sail ahead..wishing a world of happiness & more success to him and would love to see him smile more often…every day I pray to God for a cheerful day for him coz I see my happiness in him,

Read this quote a couple of days back “A wedding anniversary is the celebration of love, trust, partnership, tolerance and tenacity. The order varies for any given year” couldn’t help smiling:-)
no special plans..its just gonna be another day...thats 'bout it!!!

.....:-(

I don’t have a title for this post..somehow not in a frame of mind to actually think of one, woke up on Saturday with a bright smile but soon after knowing about the air crash in M’lore..just didn’t feel like doing anything, my heart goes out to the near and dear ones of who lost their lives..somehow could not bring myself to do anything so sat glued to the television,

Why do such things happen, we do everything possible to find happiness, make more money, to earn the luxuries but God has some different plans and everything is taken away in such short time..i feel so so sad for all of them..no words to express,

May their soul rest in peace..and may God give the dear ones the courage to live on:(

Good Ol’ days

Recently I had to get these pics out of Ma’s album for some team event..just looking at them makes me feel nostalgic..missing my bro’, Mom always tells how much we would trouble her during those days..after having Len I know it must be true!!!
Thanks Ma..for having loads of patience and for loving us so much..i know how much you miss Swaraj and I also know how much efforts its taking for you to just go on with life,
I know you see the world in me..sometimes I let out my frustrations on you..please forgive me, I feel so much hurt by the end of it..

Today is just another day..another day in paradise..:)

Sytlo to Sakku Bai:)

Yes , as the header suggests the transformation did happen!!! From Stylo to Sakku Bai and that too without me even realizing it. It all started with my maid’s departure sometime mid March. Then there was too much ego in me to accept that it was an arduous task to keep the house in shape and cooking too. For a few days I was going really well, using all the strategic moves I could. While cooking, I made sure there was variety so satisfying myself that yes, even I can do it. Then the house, I noticed that the more I tried keeping it clean more it appeared disorganized. I have never been too much of an organized person. I only want the dirt out and ensure that I find things easily unlike some people who are so organized that their cupboards look like upmarket store shelves:) Although I admire their patience but there is no way you will get me to be one of them.
Anyway coming to my story, just after about 3-4 days I concluded that it was not my cup of tea. I cannot possibly go to office as well as be a maid. So began the huff and puff..and is still continuing.
While in office a colleague asked me what has happened to the Stylo in me.., aah I almost had tears..coz no longer I tend to remember where my clothes are and I pick to wear something which I find on top of the pile, no time to press clothes:-( , no time to coordinate it. No more time for trials or anything. Its just that I have to wear something and I end up wearing. I enjoy dressing, I like to play with my style..not that I am very much go with the fashion trends or seasons but I am definitely aware what/which color looks good on me and which don’t and I think I am sensible to a certain extent. So saying, the stylo in me has taken a backseat and for now and let me be the Sakku Bai.
The search is still on for a maid, God knows when I will get a decent one but till then I will take pride in being the bai…by the time I reach office I feel I have run a marathon and arrived, I try to practice pranayam on my bike enroute to office, not that I am fan of it or anything, I somehow have to get back to normal stable state, mornings are crazy, I am more like a robot, if this continues I will be a zombie, these days I can focus only on a single thing, I only have the concentration left for that. I used to always wonder about mothers who would continue doing their work inspite of their kids calling out them sometimes yelling too, I found that really very amazing, today I have transformed to be one of them, these days I don’t listen to most of Len’s talks.

What I miss most is the “MY” time, the little time I would spend doing nothing, or possibly reading the newspaper A-Z….all a luxury now..sob,sob!!!

I wish I could blog often, so that I can let my steam out, possibly nobody would read it, but atleast its out of me. I wish to break free atleast for a couple of days, stay alone, just do nothing maybe lie down and read a nice novel, survive on bread & omlettes or even better survive on fruits:)) ..it is a distant dream for now.. in the hope of a new dawn

Signing off..