Aah..A new phone!

Something new at last..:) a new phone, both me and hubby picked up new phones for ourselves yesterday, he a X6 (after much contemplation whether to go for N72 or everything hifi under the roof) and me as usual fell for the cute faced sales guy and picked up 7230 in hot pink (jeez still not able to know how this could happen me and pink..so so girly :))
After HTC this seems so bacchu for me, I didn’t know how to use the keys..the guys were laughing away to glory at the store seeing me struggle, they were like happens happens after a touch phone, htc was cool..nice phone but a bit slow but recently started showing signs of aging, sometimes would conk off and that too at the right time, Grrr..
so that made me think of a new one,

Donno why I was so insistent on Raj buying a Nokia, so much faith in the brand?? In a way yes!!! So all said and done new phone, so much to explore now..
These days with technology and trends, we are spoilt with choices..very soon these phone what we picked will be replaced with some higher end models and phew..

Who will cry when you die??

Now you guys don’t start wondering whats wrong with me, I am not in one of those goddamn moods and I really don’t care if anybody cries or not after I die ..how does that supposed to matter anyways…lol!!!
This is the book I am reading now, pretty good i should say!! I generally don’t pick up much of these kinds but somehow always when I do I feel inspired, I feel I am ready to change the world..alas I wish alteast i could (?) for better though.

Mixed feelings..had a pretty good start today, offered to drop a lady whom I know from the bank and she seemed so delighted, felt good at the end of it..huh!!
Apart from this nothing very significant had a good chat with a friend who dropped in at my desk @ work. Friends really have a way to brighten our lives…who better than me knows what friends are ..they are a blessing:)

Yesterday was one of the days I may never forget for reasons of my own, I am so so happy our flat is finally come to a shape, one of my dreams coming true,
God, thank you again for all the things you have given me, the good, bad and everything.

Life surely is beautiful (conclusion).....................

Three Cheers to "US"

Celebrating 5 years of M A R R I A G E

Yes its been 5 years officially that me and Raj have been married..sounds so long long ago though:)
Only a couple of friends have remembered and have called and the rest of them im sure want to forget that I am married..lol

It’s a strange feeling coz I am so neutral, happy that 5 years have passed by, gosh man that was a rough sail and sincerely hope life is less turbulent and really hope we have a smooth sail ahead..wishing a world of happiness & more success to him and would love to see him smile more often…every day I pray to God for a cheerful day for him coz I see my happiness in him,

Read this quote a couple of days back “A wedding anniversary is the celebration of love, trust, partnership, tolerance and tenacity. The order varies for any given year” couldn’t help smiling:-)
no special plans..its just gonna be another day...thats 'bout it!!!

.....:-(

I don’t have a title for this post..somehow not in a frame of mind to actually think of one, woke up on Saturday with a bright smile but soon after knowing about the air crash in M’lore..just didn’t feel like doing anything, my heart goes out to the near and dear ones of who lost their lives..somehow could not bring myself to do anything so sat glued to the television,

Why do such things happen, we do everything possible to find happiness, make more money, to earn the luxuries but God has some different plans and everything is taken away in such short time..i feel so so sad for all of them..no words to express,

May their soul rest in peace..and may God give the dear ones the courage to live on:(

Good Ol’ days

Recently I had to get these pics out of Ma’s album for some team event..just looking at them makes me feel nostalgic..missing my bro’, Mom always tells how much we would trouble her during those days..after having Len I know it must be true!!!
Thanks Ma..for having loads of patience and for loving us so much..i know how much you miss Swaraj and I also know how much efforts its taking for you to just go on with life,
I know you see the world in me..sometimes I let out my frustrations on you..please forgive me, I feel so much hurt by the end of it..

Today is just another day..another day in paradise..:)

Sytlo to Sakku Bai:)

Yes , as the header suggests the transformation did happen!!! From Stylo to Sakku Bai and that too without me even realizing it. It all started with my maid’s departure sometime mid March. Then there was too much ego in me to accept that it was an arduous task to keep the house in shape and cooking too. For a few days I was going really well, using all the strategic moves I could. While cooking, I made sure there was variety so satisfying myself that yes, even I can do it. Then the house, I noticed that the more I tried keeping it clean more it appeared disorganized. I have never been too much of an organized person. I only want the dirt out and ensure that I find things easily unlike some people who are so organized that their cupboards look like upmarket store shelves:) Although I admire their patience but there is no way you will get me to be one of them.
Anyway coming to my story, just after about 3-4 days I concluded that it was not my cup of tea. I cannot possibly go to office as well as be a maid. So began the huff and puff..and is still continuing.
While in office a colleague asked me what has happened to the Stylo in me.., aah I almost had tears..coz no longer I tend to remember where my clothes are and I pick to wear something which I find on top of the pile, no time to press clothes:-( , no time to coordinate it. No more time for trials or anything. Its just that I have to wear something and I end up wearing. I enjoy dressing, I like to play with my style..not that I am very much go with the fashion trends or seasons but I am definitely aware what/which color looks good on me and which don’t and I think I am sensible to a certain extent. So saying, the stylo in me has taken a backseat and for now and let me be the Sakku Bai.
The search is still on for a maid, God knows when I will get a decent one but till then I will take pride in being the bai…by the time I reach office I feel I have run a marathon and arrived, I try to practice pranayam on my bike enroute to office, not that I am fan of it or anything, I somehow have to get back to normal stable state, mornings are crazy, I am more like a robot, if this continues I will be a zombie, these days I can focus only on a single thing, I only have the concentration left for that. I used to always wonder about mothers who would continue doing their work inspite of their kids calling out them sometimes yelling too, I found that really very amazing, today I have transformed to be one of them, these days I don’t listen to most of Len’s talks.

What I miss most is the “MY” time, the little time I would spend doing nothing, or possibly reading the newspaper A-Z….all a luxury now..sob,sob!!!

I wish I could blog often, so that I can let my steam out, possibly nobody would read it, but atleast its out of me. I wish to break free atleast for a couple of days, stay alone, just do nothing maybe lie down and read a nice novel, survive on bread & omlettes or even better survive on fruits:)) ..it is a distant dream for now.. in the hope of a new dawn

Signing off..

Unique

I had never given much thought to this word till someday before when someone said I was unique. Although I farely knew what it means but I wanted to check out and this came up-
Unique - being the only one of a kind, Special - different from others in a way that makes somebody or something special and worthy of note
Special, different from others etc..etc..Feels good, always for me Normal was boring..
All thru my life I have heard other versions of this saying I was different, a rare species..if someone knows me from college/hostel days, they would not forget my “rare species lives here” poster..miss those wonderful days, those wonderful people around me..i didn’t take forward those relationships for some reason and that’s the saddest part. Girls can be so much fun actually..they were a great set, each one of them upto something..we have had our share of fights, laughs, embarrassments, bankruptcy and everything else…but we were never lonely.
I donno where all of you are now ..i fondly cherish our good old days..three cheers to you all.
Trust me..life changed a lot after that phase, it gave room to a lot of pleasures, luxuries, experiences etc..but didn’t really have your kinda friends to share them with.

To you Raji (somewhere in London), Prathi & Chari (here somewhere in Bangalore), Chuppi (I honestly don’t know where u are maybe in Manipur or Jaipur), Vyshu (new mommy back from London), Lubi (God knows where you are?!) Sudha (somewhere in Assam(?)
..miss you buddies.. With each of you I have shared my few yesterdays and it was awesome, thanks for being there then, it made life all the more merrier!

I sincerely hope I get a chance to host you one day and spend some time..
Being a wife, a mother has changed, am so much mellowed down but trust me I feel its for better, the wilderness in me is more or less gone. I am a plain Jane now..:)) I am looking forward for the day I can meet you girlies and see what has life worked with all of you....

Mane Distress!!

With the dawn of the new year…strange I had yet another important thing to worry…My HAIR!! Never before I had given a serious thought about it, my hair was ME..never problematic:)..there were bad hair days but that definitely was bearable, since school days I have been told I had great hair, then it was because it was very silky smooth (those days when conditioner was not known) then in college coz I didn’t have the typical jet black, my hair was always on the browner side..that is how I always liked too..(mind you..before the coloring mania began!)..and after that it was for no of other reasons, the styles, highlights etc.,..and then suddenly I started noticing that I was losing hair in lumps..it was falling at a rate that I could easily make a wig..sob..sob..i knew I had to act on it fast or else soon I would soon be bald..

I frantically browsed the net, all with more or else the same queries..on how to stop hair loss, reasons, cure, etc..etc..then I found I am not the only one..there were thousands like me:(..internet is definitely very useful but sometimes it confuses you..i heard somewhere these days there are 3 types of consultation for any medical problem..the regular doctor, the self-doctor and the internet. How true..with so much information available it becomes so easy to take the advice from the net. I remember the time when I was pregnant every time the doc would recommend some medicine/tests I would come back and check the net only if it was okayed there I would have it or get the test done..
But coming to my problem here , it was of not much help..hair loss could be for # of reasons..it could simply because of change of water or as grave as cancer..shucks..this scares me..this time I really wanted to grow it long..and style it later..but not happening! So saying I started off with the remedies, eating sesame seeds, greens etc..etc..even used fenugreek leaves on my hair and not to miss out the famous hibiscus leaves. Jeez..it was a helluva task to remove that sticky stuff off my hair..anything for my dear hair..im desperate..
Nothing seemed to help..so there I was placing a call to my salon..Thankfully I managed getting a appointment soon. With the usual hellos and exchanging smiles it was time to face the ugly truth..there I was facing the huge mirrors and by the very look the stylist (a very nice Tibetian guy) said what was wrong…and then began my sob story..he said I should consult a doc and types.. I was like yeah..yeah..and then began the chop..chop..all I told him was to make it look like I have a lot of hair and that was all he need. For the next 2 hours he went on and on..for the first 30 mins I was sitting with a lot of patience admiring his passion, his style etc..etc..and then I could no longer sit quiet, I was just hoping he finishes..when he came to the final stages of setting the hair my patience was nil..i wanted to just run away..but all for my dear hair..he ended up giving me a JOB look(wondering what it is..lol..its Just out of bed:))))
I am someone who like to wear my hair neat, I don’t like even a strand popping out..but just to make the less hair seem more I have to go with this..i think with time I will start liking it..till the next time I visit him..and then again another 2 hours he will transform me into someone..
I admire the enormous patience these ppl have I seem to wonder if they are the same ones back with their near ones.. I wish they are..the least best thing I can do is spell my hair stylist’s name properly..but no..i cannot..it is Lyangdup or so..And the Miracle happened…my hair fall has reduced to negligible. Maybe it needed the magic touch:)..and that’s the good ending!!!
I wish all my other problems too have a good ending…in that hope I sign off:)

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year!!!!

I know I am already late but better late than never. This time again I have welcomed the year 2010 with great spirits and days ahead looks beautiful, I have vowed to make them even more better:-)
Good friends have already asked ‘bout the resolutions..I have thought of no such thing. Its only living life as it comes with of course a lot of courage, confidence and most of all a right attitude.
Somehow I feel this year will be very remarkable lets see how it goes…

“The scariest part about stepping forward is wondering what you might be leaving behind”

But this time around I chose to leave behind a lot of bitterness,.... I shall start fresh!